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Taylor Swift – This Is Me Trying | Lyrics Meaning & Song Review

“This is Me Trying” is the ninth track on Taylor Swift’s 2020 album ‘Folklore.’ The song entangles the topics of Taylor’s shift from Country music to Pop and also admitting her mistakes that lead to her past breakups.

Taylor Swift announced her 8th studio album ‘Folklore‘ just a few hours ahead of the album release on July 24, 2020. The album had no singles prior to the album release, and Taylor stated the reason for the ‘surprise’ album release as the “uncertainty” surrounding the world right now.

The song title reminisces of the lyrics of “Back to December” from Taylor’s ‘Speak Now’ album. In the song, she sings “this is me swallowing my pride/Standing in front of you/Saying I’m sorry for that night.”

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“this is me trying” Lyrics Meaning and Song Review

Verse 1

Taylor Swift starts off by saying that she has had a hard time adjusting… to what? She leaves this an open ended statement. Presumably, a lot has changed in her 30 years of existence on this planet. She went from being a timid and homely Country music girl to one of the biggest Pop stars in the world. She ran through a list of boyfriends before settling with current boyfriend Joe Alwyn. Her mother, Andrea Swift is battling a cancer. It’s a lot on her plate.

Taylor says that her shiny wheel are rusting now. Possibly a reference to her preference of calm and seclusion now as opposed to stardom and fame a few years back.

She also says that if she does not if people want her back–back in the media, concerts, back to a Pop era. And this also references to her relationships as well. A relationsip that she had to move on from, she cannot help but wonder about “what ifs.”


Taylor Swift lets us/him/them know that she is trying, the best she can. She has a lot of balls to juggle at once–her own sanity, career goals, fans, relationships, parents, friends, money, image, and the list goes on and on. And sometimes this can feel like too much weight on a single person. This is when people crack!

Verse 2

In the second verse, Taylor Swift confesses about being told that all her “problems” are just manifestations of her mentality–nothing real, but it’s all in her head. She had nowhere to run except to alcohol. That certainly stops the mind from being active.

She was also told that her words shoot to kill when she is mad. The only heated topics Taylor had addressed in her public life were related to fighting for equal rights for women and politics.

I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere

To be ahead of the curve is to be have a better grasp of the situation than everyone else so you make better choices. However, how can one be ahead of the curve when the curve completes itself and becomes a circle?! Your life comes to a full stop or rather an infinite loop of nothingness.

Taylor must have poured his heart out to so many boyfriend along the years to share her pain. But we all know how those turned out to be until her present relationship. But at least she did not become an alcoholic or a druggie, crumbling under the pressure of life.


These lyrics reveal that Taylor Swift, one of the biggest artists in the world, also has a life behind the curtains–one filled with pain. But she always put on a smile and held her head straight up for her friends and family, the public, for the fans, for the media, for the countless award ceremonies she attended. In that sense, she is a superwoman!

And she continues to keep on trying…

Let us know what you think about this song in the comments below. Check out the complete lyrics and further meaning breakdown on Genius.

13 thoughts on “Taylor Swift – This Is Me Trying | Lyrics Meaning & Song Review

  1. As an alcoholic and drug addict in Recovery, I strongly identified with the lyrics to this song. There is so much pain caused by our addictions, we hurt family and friends.. doing anything to get what we want regardless of the consequences. When we stop drinking and using, there is a long battle ahead of identifying where we were at fault and making amends. Sometimes those amends are not well received due to the pain we may have caused. This song speaks to my soul! TBH, I was never a huge TS fan. I liked some of her songs on the radio, but mostly listen to indie/folk music. Her collaboration with Bon Iver was the main reason I listened.. and I am so amazed by the entire album!!

    1. Hi Rebecca,
      Thanks for sharing your story. Congratulations on the recovery process and we are all proud of your achievement.
      We also do agree that ‘folklore’ is one of Taylor’s finest creations.

      Thank you and stay strong.

    2. I dont have an alcohol addiction but I’m struggling with binge eating disorder and this is one of the reasons why i relate to this song so much. It’s like every second is a battle to not eat/drink unhealthy things, sugar addiction is just like drug addictions and I have to stay away from all of these things 24/7. Thank you for sharing your story, Rebecca. You’re so strong and certainly not alone.

      Aşk the love & blessing.

  2. I agree with this interpretation. It’s basically a song that tells someone who broke her heart that she’s trying to move on from their relationship. We all agree that moving on ain’t easy that’s why she’s trying her best. And it’s so relatable 😍

  3. LOL. I don’t think your interpretation is correct. The album title is “folklore”, plus TS doesn’t always write songs about herself or what she’s feeling, she can definitely write songs based on things that doesn’t immediately affect her personally.

    1. Hi Jo,
      Thanks for the comment.
      How do you know this song is not about what she is going through?

        1. Well, that’s what the literally says.
          Taylor Swift says “this is ME trying” and you say it’s about someone else?

          1. Not sure if y’all saw Long Pond Sessions, but she talks about all the songs in the album, how they started, what they’re about etc. This song isn’t from her perspective (personally I felt this was obvious) there’s at least two fictional characters in this song, as there are among the entire album.

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