Since “it doesn’t seem like you all can wait any longer for this…” said Bebe Rexha releasing her brand new single “Sabotage” from her upcoming 2021 album. The song is about her own self-destructive behavior which she cannot seem to understand. The song was released along with a music video.
“Sabotage” is the newest release from Bebe Rexha’s second studio album ‘Better Mistakes.’ In an interview, Bebe Rexha explained that her new album “is based off of honesty and vulnerability and insecurities and speaking upon those insecurities.” Previous releases from the album so far include “Sacrifice” and “Baby, I’m Jealous” featuring Doja Cat.
Watch “Sabotage” Music Video by Bebe Rexha
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Throughout the song, Bebe Rexha has one question for herself; “Why do I sabotage everything I love?” This is not a very unique experience. Most of us, especially in these times, feel like we are not worthy of the good things that come our way and actively try to deny them. This feeling comes with the experiences we have had in our lives, usually deprived of any good thing that has ever happened in our lives. And when actually something good comes our way, it seems too good to be true and we shelter ourselves from the good too.
In the first verse, Bebe Rexha touches on the topic of relationships. You open up yourself for so many people over the years only to get heartbroken every time. This conditions your mind to perceive any future relationships as potential screw-ups too. So, when an actually good partner comes along, your panic levels skyrocket thinking that they just cannot be for real! And then you try so hard to keep them at a distance and you eventually end up kicking them out of your life. And somehow you believe this was meant to happen. But it was only yourself who sabotaged your own happiness.
The walls are closin’ in because I built them up
Building walls around yourself is a metaphor for closing yourself to the outside world to protect yourself. However, the problem is that walls also keep the ‘good’ out just as much as it does with the ‘bad.’ Humans are a species that needs the company of other humans. Unless you rip out this gene out of your system, you will need people to rely on. Closing yourself to the entire world outside is not the way to live your life.
However, after years of being treated like you don’t deserve anything good, it will be very difficult to accept any good that comes your way! Stay hopeful, I guess!
Let us hear what you think about this song in the comments below. Check out the complete lyrics on Genius.